Here is my question for today; How the hell did I gain 2lbs this week? Could it be that muscle weighs more than fat or am I still eating too much? I'm going to be honest and say that the exercise has made me a little hungrier, but 2 lbs, really? Maybe I just hadn't pooped enough before I got on the scale. Please remember, I'm just writing what I'm thinking and right now, I'm grasping at straws. I need to believe that it's muscle, so I can continue with only positive thoughts.
I did my exercise with the band for my hips and I did the standing on one leg at a time and my balance seems to be improving. Hopefully my core is getting stronger and...building more/some muscle. That could account for half a lb, right? My knee has been bothering me quite a bit the past 2 days, so this morning I prayed really hard that it gets better quickly. It's not swollen, just sore where I have my scar from my knee surgery. I'm not sure if that's bad or good. I don't know if anyone really realizes how much accomplishing this means to me. I'm not joking about the praying, so if anyone would like to send a few prayers my way, I would greatly appreciate it.
This whole thing hasn't been easy, and I am enjoying it more then I ever imagined I would. I remember joking and saying to my sister, "why would anyone ever want to run, yuk"? It kind of seemed stupid to me, but I get it now. I don't think I can put it into words. It's a sense of being a part of everything around you and yet there is a serenity to it all. I love being in my neighborhood and seeing people gardening or mowing their lawns. Saying hi to strangers who are also outside or watching the progression of a project on someones home. I also love when I'm almost home and I feel like I have a couple more streets in me to walk/run and I keep going, but not over doing it. There is so much more to this than meets the eye. I never in a million years thought I would shed a tear about my knee keeping me from running, but I did this morning. The transformation of my thoughts is incredible!
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